The Power of Habit

As summer gets closer I can feel the itch to indulge in the habits of my past summers--the summers where I spent days lounging by the pool, book in hand, and nights spent with friends in various houses, bars, parks, and cars. I also feel the weight of my pre-summer habits: apathy, exhaustion, and weariness. I hate to say it, but these habits have been well ingrained in my system, and I can't seem to shake them. April is the cruelest month, after all. 

Since April first came around, pre-summer habits have taken hold, and there seems to be no end in site. How to break the cycle? This has been on my mind the past week. I keep saying to myself, once the travel dies down, it'll be better. Once I'm sleeping in my bed every night, then I will get my second wind. Honestly, I think have a few positive interactions with professors this week and next would do wonders for my moral. I don't even care if they aren't using my book, just someone being nice would be helpful. Only 3 more weeks. Only 3 weeks…. 

This summer will bring its own set of troubles as far as breaking more habits. Certain people who seem to always become intricate parts of my summer life will be missing… for better or worse, I'm not sure yet. I would like to think it's for the better, ultimately. Off I go, into the flood to April to hopefully wade through to the other side where there is restoration and sleep.