Repeat.

As much as I hate to admit it, I'm the kind of person who can listen to the same song on repeat for days... and I mean DAYS. It doesn't happen all the time, but once a month or so I find a song that really speaks to me and I have to listen to it constantly until I discover some kind of answer about myself. Currently, I have been stuck on Ben Rector's song "White Dress" since last Friday. And I think I've finally found what I'm looking for about myself in the song, as well as a few observations about my compulsive listening habits.

While pondering my obsession with this song, I realized that  listening to a song as a way to facilitate change in yourself. I usually get stuck on songs that talk about an action or quality that I would like to obtain or strengthen. This song in particular is talking about how someone didn't realize how much they could love someone until they met that special person. And how they couldn't comprehend someone loving them just as much. This song really spoke to me on multiple levels: one circling back to my resolution to love without calculation. Two, I'm looking forward to the day when I find that person who I can love without any boundaries and be loved without any boundaries. Blah blah blah... so corny and girly, but it is true.

Some songs simply reflect the change we want to see in ourselves. Some people don't see music as a life changing medium. Some people's lives revolve around music. Either way, we all experience media that reflects a change we want to see in ourselves. As Gandhi said, "Be the change you want to see in the world." So today I am challenging myself to continue to be the change. To love without calculation. To be generous. To be understanding. To be slow to anger. To love without boundaries. And just simply to show love to others. We all need a little love.