Feelings I Just Can't Shake

Sometimes I feel guilty for the decisions I make. Specifically, the decision to not be a teacher and to begin a career in publishing. I know a couple of days ago I was exploding with love for me job, which I still feel, but I can't squash this nagging feeling that I'm not necessarily fulfilling my purpose in life. Despite my love for my job, I never really feel like I make a difference. Don't get me wrong, Norton is a great company with fabulous products and a wonderful commitment to quality, but it's just not the same as shaping the minds of young people. I was reminded of that when I sat in on my fake-mom's junior English class. The entire time I sat there I thought about how much I loved being a substitute teacher--the feeling that every day I made a difference for someone. Now, I know I wasn't there to walk them through their educational journey, but I was talk with them, learn about their lives, bond with them, treat them like people. It was truly one of the most rewarding experiences of my life. I just can't shake the feeling that I have stepped over the career I was supposed to be in. I know it's silly, but I've always felt like I was destined to make some kind of change in the world… I'm sure everyone feels that way, but I just can't see how I will do that in my current job. I suppose only time will tell.