Today's yoga workout was not nearly as emotionally taxing as yesterday's turned out to be (I think I have too much on my mind in regards to work to be too introspective), but I did have a few moments to think during shavasana.
Resting there, I started wondering what my mantra should be for my yoga sessions. Now, I know this isn't necessary by any means, but one of my goals with this entire process is to learn to better control my thoughts. I once read somewhere (God only knows where) that one should select thoughts like you select clothing. Hopefully over the next couple of weeks I can try out some matras and see what fits best.
Wednesday, May 2, 2012
Tuesday, May 1, 2012
Day 1--Forgiving Myself
Hey all! The day is drawing to a close, and I can say that I have completed my yoga workout for day one. Not only was it a wonderful stretch (I did shoulders and back yoga today), but it led to some interesting thoughts.
As I rested on my yoga mat during shavasana, I began thinking about my tendency to beat myself up over my mistakes. I've realized over the past couple of weeks that when I make a prolific life mistake (and believe me, there are several) I tend to hold on tight and never let go. It seems to be my own personal way of deterring my over-all happiness. Examples of these kinds of mistakes are (and not limited to): ways I've treated my exs, ways I've treated friends, ways I've treated family, help I did not lend towards family or friends that I should have, and sacrifices I should have made. Is some of this irrational? Yes. Have the people I've committed these offenses against forgiven me? Mostly. Yet I am incapable of forgiving myself.
As a result of my lack of forgiveness, I make insane proclamations to myself. The best example of this: I am incapable/undeserving of being love by someone. Extreme? Yes. But I've also noticed I'm all about extreme (I feel like most of my friends and family can agree). Some deep thoughts for you on day one of the 100 Day Challenge, and I'm sure there will be many more to come.
As I rested on my yoga mat during shavasana, I began thinking about my tendency to beat myself up over my mistakes. I've realized over the past couple of weeks that when I make a prolific life mistake (and believe me, there are several) I tend to hold on tight and never let go. It seems to be my own personal way of deterring my over-all happiness. Examples of these kinds of mistakes are (and not limited to): ways I've treated my exs, ways I've treated friends, ways I've treated family, help I did not lend towards family or friends that I should have, and sacrifices I should have made. Is some of this irrational? Yes. Have the people I've committed these offenses against forgiven me? Mostly. Yet I am incapable of forgiving myself.
As a result of my lack of forgiveness, I make insane proclamations to myself. The best example of this: I am incapable/undeserving of being love by someone. Extreme? Yes. But I've also noticed I'm all about extreme (I feel like most of my friends and family can agree). Some deep thoughts for you on day one of the 100 Day Challenge, and I'm sure there will be many more to come.
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